Saturday, June 30, 2007

18 going 19

aku,,
yang sedang mencoba mengerti
apa yang harus ku lakukan dengan hidup ku
dengan pasir yang menghampar di hadapan ku
mencari arti hidup ku
mencari ujung dari benang kusut ini
cahaya di tengah gelapnya malam
pelangi di kala hujan
jawaban atas segala tanya
penyelesaian pada masalah yang tak henti menghampiri
penyelarasan ketika hati dan pikiran ku berbeda pendapat
kadang ku bertanya,,
God, what do U expect from me?
this all seem way beyond easy
and God,, if only i had the right to remind U
im only 18,, going 19..

-HR-
30062007 2:12am

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

happy bday daddy

today,,26th june 2007,,is my daddy's 56th bday
we've just came back from dinner @d'cost in kemang,,
and start from 1st july, my dad will officially retired,,
as mas adit said,,
"although he's been away for all of us, but from now on, dad will always be here for us"

so,, happy bday dad..
happy retirement day dad..

Monday, June 25, 2007

some poetries from old days

i recently cleaned my old stuff and found some poetries from 2nd grade high school,
wasnt all by me,,
one was by me,
at my 2nd grade, my english teacher [p asdad/abi] told us to make poetry or just write about how we feel ,, so we start to write about it,,
many of them dedicated for someone, or our secret admirer,,
i can only found all of this,
and they were all great, so i decided to post them in this blog,
it'll be very long, n i hope u wont get bored,
cuz they have great meaning [even not wrapped in good english]

so, enjoy...


Love, pain and love again
-AM-

When love came
I felt it too deep, I didn’t care all about people say
I didn’t care about anything
Its just u in my heart
Its just u in my dream
Its just u, my love… its love

Love is deep and love is so blind
I was crazy over you
But u didn’t, its very impossible
U played me like a card, u played me like gamble
Cause u thought love is a game
U broke my heart when I knew that
I hated u. I hated this love
I hated all girl in this world
I hated this pain

Time is changing
Its very long time to forgive u
It was gone, it changed
Love comes back and im addicted to u
God, its love…. Pain
And why it must love again….



-NK-

Sometimes I love u
But sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I wanna be us
But sometimes I just wanna be u and me
Im confused with my feeling, my self, my heart and my mind

Yesterday we are bestfriend
Today we are couple
And now….
Im waiting for tomorrow
What will we be?
Now, im confused with u and your feeling

Last night, u asked me to stay beside u
But this morning, u act like u don’t even know me
Until now u still make me confused

I don’t know, is this the beginning of the story
Or is it the ending from the story
All the answer is in u..



Just go but don’t leave me
-DA-

Don’t say goodbye to me, because we’ll meet again
I don’t know when we’ll meet again, but I believe that we’ll meet again
I never trust destiny, but I must
I cant lie my heart, but its true
If u want to go, just go, but don’t leave me
Maybe u just feel, that we are friend, but sorry its not true
Now, when u want to go, I will tell u something
About us
U are my best friend, u are the best friend in my life, but
U are my enemy too, because u will go to leave me alone
I just can ask to God, u’ll never still strong there,
And then u will back to me
To b hapy and sad together, with all my friend


-AS-

Love is not a moment when u say that
“oh he’s so handsome” or
When u say
“oh she’s so beautiful”

We know that we are not perfect
Because nobody is
But im sure that u have something
That they don’t

Maybe,
U have someone who loves u, now
And someone who care for u
Because everyone has the right to get it

Believe of it, that the God
Will send someone for u
Who is better than the other

My soul
-NF-

How long will I be my soul?
Me and my soul r always standing together
Someone shows me my new reflection
My new soul which is better than yesterday
He is not anything, he is not my dearest too, but he is….
Someone who gives me the meaning of believeness and sincere
How to life in this world, how to be just my self
How to safe my life
I will always be my self, just me and my soul
Like he says!!

As long as the stars twinkle in the sky
As long as the ocean becomes dry
As long as the angels way up to high
As long as u walk in ur way
U are just ur soul, not the other

But he’s not beside me again
Yesterday, I saw his back, fade away
And I just draw his back now
Yesterday he was gone, but he leaves my one pleasure
I have got new belief about my life


Close my heart
-AV-

I don’t know what I must say
Im happy to see u
I don’t know this feeling
Maybe this is love

I love u
I want to keep u in my heart
I don’t know what I have to say to u
I really really love u
But may be this is only my dream
To keep u in my heart

Im so sad if I see u walk with other man
I really love u, but I cant
Now..
Maybe I must go, go from my love
And I can only see u from ur back
And maybe I’ll see u
Walk with other man from ur back

I hope u can find your love
I hope u will be happy with ur true love

Now..
Maybe I will close my heart
Close my love until someone
Can open my heart, like u did
And take ur place in my heart
But may be no one can open my heart
U’re the only one, my last love


Secret admirer
-PS-

To see u,, make me feel happy
But if I see u walk with another man,
Should I be happy?

I just can see u from far away
Admirer u with seeing,, how beautiful ur face is
Ur smile, ur voice, and ur body

And all that I can do for u from far away
Just to see u
And can be
Your secret admirer

Don’t ever
-IA-

Don’t u ever say goodbye
If u want still to try

Don’t u ever give up
If u still can

Don’t u ever say that u don’t love him
If u cant forget him

So,, don’t ever

You’re too high cuz u feel nothing
-PS-

Trust in me
I don’t wanna love u
I don’t mean to love u
I don’t wanna keep u in my life
Please, trust me! I wanna feel nothing
Yagh,, perhaps that’s all

So, I don’t wanna feel that’s all
But.. if I do? If I really love u?
What will u do?
I know.. u will say ‘who’re u?’
And after that u hate me
But, whats ur point to break my love for u?
Do I disturb u?
Or maybe destroy u?
No.. I think I never!!!!
If u don’t like me to love u
N just consider u as a friend
It’s ok..
Might it’s not enough for me
It’s enough to be ur friend!!
But don’t angry with me
If I love u
My mind does not mean to love u
But my heart does

Sorry
-DC-

Sorry if I must go from u
Maybe this way is better for me
I’m sorry that I hurt u
And I believe that someday, somewhere
I’ll meet u again, with a smile…
… I believe that

If u know, I cant leave u
But this the final decision
I know u hate me
And I just can say “SORRY”

You
-unknown-

Yesterday, I smiled for u
All of my happiness are because of u
Today im sad for u
All my tears are because of u
But maybe im not precious for u
But maybe I cant forget u
Because u are my happiness
And also my pain

My tears
-DR-

When the night comes to me
And the loneliness back.. again
Im staying here
And sing the song
The song about my heart
Im staying here
And I learn more
How to get love for me

Because im the man
Who will never stop to find
The happiness times for me
Because im the man
Who will never stop to find
The ture love for me

Just a little bit attention
Just a little time
Just a little love
To flow my tears


-HR-

‘who am i?’ I said
‘my lover.’ U said
Tell me.. who am i?’ I said
‘u r my lover,, my beloved girl’ u said
ur what? Ur beloved girl u said?’ I said
‘of course, I love u, and u lo…’ u said
‘u do love me or u loved me?’ I said
‘what r u talking about?’ u said
‘am I ur lover or
A girl to be held when u need to hold,
A girl to be hugged when u need a hug,
A girl to be kissed when u need to be kissed.’ I said
‘R u kidding me?’ u said
‘I’m just a little spot in ur sunshine,
Ur little fire in ur snowy day,
Ur little rest in ur busy week.’ I said
“WHAT??’ u said
‘if im ur lover will u do this to me? Will u do all of these?’ I said
‘…….’ I wait but u r silent
‘u r too busy even to make me smile, and..
I am only someone trying to come to ur full mind,
And I guess, it will never work.’ I said angrily
‘.. u r my lover, please come back and make me smile’ u said
‘Speak the truth, WHO AM I? who am I for u?’ I said loudly
Then only silence left and tears dropped from my eyes.
U walked away from me.

A piece of love to the heartbreaker
-AI-

U dumped me when my love grow up
U broke my heart when I try to love u
U are my spirit to do the best
U are my reason to survive

I just want to be a part of ur life
I just want to be a side of ur heart
I gave u a bowl of love in ur dinner
I gave u a plate of pray in ur dream

I’m waiting for ur love in my night
The night which will never come to me

Why u leave me when I fall into the deepest of ur heart
I’m disappointed to u

But I still have a piece of love for u
My,,, heartbreaker

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

hari ini, esok, hingga....

900 am bangun tidur
900-930 am nonton good morning
930-1000 am nonton sorot
1000-1030 am mandi
1030-1100 am nonton oprah/back2beck
1100-1145 am insert
1130-1200 am silet
1200-1230 pm infotainment siang
1230-100 pm si bolang
100-130 pm ceriwis
130-200 pm sisi lain
200-230 pm wisata kuliner
115-330 pm internet
330-430 pm nyoba nge-edit foto
430-500 pm showbiznews
500-530 pm jejak petualang
530-600 pm insert
600-630 pm news@metro tv
630-700 pm mandi
700-900 pm theater7
900-1100 pm bioskop trans tv
930-1100 pm empat mata
1100 pm tidur

gitu lah hidup gw selama liburan semester gw,,
bosan,,
gitu" aja
with no surprise..
hanya gosip para artis yang selalu menemani,,
up to date abisssss..

hari ini, esok, hingga 3 juli 2007

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

more than u think

i know more than u think i've learnt
i see more than u think i've seen
i hear more than u think i've heard
i feel more than u think i've been through

im not blind
im not deaf

i am more than u think i am

so stop fooling me..!

Monday, June 4, 2007

pusing,,,pusing,,pusiiiiiinggggg

ive juz come back from bdg and my head is so heavy,,
pusing berat...
dari kemaren" kurang tiduy mulu..

d lembang seru abiesss...
apa lagi pas "sesi curhat sampe nangis darah"
gw ngerasa banyak banget yang mbantuin gw ngelewatin masa" sulit [halah]
bener kata isan,,"u'll never walk alone"
biar cowo gw pergi,,tapi gw g sendirian,,masi ada temen",,
walo g bisa dipungkiri,,ada yang kurang rasanya...
ntar juga lewat,,seiring dg berjalannya waktu...