im gonna b an aunty of two

wiiihh,,,!!!

im so happy,,,
another family member is coming,,,!!!

two in a row..

oh my god,, im speechless,,
alhamdulillah..

they re gonna b wonderful parent,,amin.

wiihhh,,,

so happy for both of u,,
mas dwi n mbak nan..!!

perasaan baru kemaren
sarapan bareng pake seragam semua,,
sekarang,,dh mo jadi parent ajah..
whihihihi..
perasaan baru kmrn nonton shark tale berempat,,dn dah ngerasa "full circle"
bentar lagi,,berdelapan d...wihihihihi,,,
perasaan baru kmrn nomongin gmn pake computer,
sekarang,,ngomongin cara kerja testpack..!!

subhanallah,,
betapa waktu cepat berlalu,,
time flies by,,especilally when we're having fun..!

im gonna miss d part when im the youngest,,
im gonna miss when i say "aku kan bukan anak kecil lagi" but no one believes,,since im the youengst,no matter how old i am..

im gonna be an aunty of two....!!!!

antara aku, kamu dn keegoisan kita masing masing

aku slalu nganggep
aku yang selalu mengerti kamu,
aku banyak ngorbanin keegoisan ku demi kamu dan orang2 di sekelilingku,
walo mereka g pernah ngerti aku,
walo mereka g pernah peduli gimana perasaan ku.
lalu, 
aku bilang aku capek kalo terus begini
ngalah untuk menang, 
tanpa hasil kemenangan yang jelas selain sakit hati.

di lain pihak

kamu slalu nganggep
kamu yang selalu mengerti aku,
kamu banyak ngorbanin keegoisan mu demi aku dan orang2 di sekelilingmu,
walo mereka g pernah ngerti kamu,
walo mereka g pernah peduli gimana perasaan mu.
lalu, 
kamu bilang kamu capek kalo terus begini
ngalah untuk menang, 
tanpa hasil kemenangan yang jelas selain sakit hati.

lalu,,
kalo kita berdua sama sama selalu ngerasa ngalah demi kepentingan orang lain..
kok diantara kita berdua g ada yang ngerasa comfort,,g ad yg ngerasa enak..?
aku ngerasa capek gertiin kamu,,kamu capek ngertiin aku,
padahal aku g ngerasa kamu ngerti aku,,kamu g ngerasa aku ngerti kamu..

aku rasa artinya,,
sebenernya g ada dari kita yang ngalah demi orang lain,,
kita tetep mementingkan ego kita masing masing,
cuma ngaku-ngaku dan ngerasa aja kalo kita dah ngalah..

keegoisan kita yang bilang kalo kita dah ngalah,,
padahal dengan begitu, bukannya keegoisan kita menang..
dengan bilang "gw udah cukup ngalah selama ini"
keegoisan kita yang menari-nari..

ps 1 : cerita ini hanya fiktif belaka,,jika ada kesamaan kejadian, nama dan tempat, itu hanyalah kebetulan yang tidak disangka

ps 2 : ahh,,teoritis bgt sih lo nin,,omong doank dasar [kata devil gw]
yee,,biarin yang penting gw dh nyampe mikir segini,,daripada udah g ngomong,,g kepikiran juga [kata angel gw]

yup,, "segitunya" kok..!

i just read my-elementary-school-friend-that-currently-studying-in-Germany's shout out in FS
it says "Segitunya kah jarak jadi penghalang !?"

all i wanna say is,,
"yup,,segitunya kok,,welcome to the club bro..!"

useless

my life's been useless this 3 days..
d first day was ratatouille,,scheduled at 2,,but escaped at 4,,
back at 1am,,
second days was wake up in 12,,doing nothing till hunger n late lunch at 4,,
then dinner at 9,,
talking talking talking till 1 am..
then today,,
wake up at 12

!@#^&^$%#@#!#^%^#@#$^%^%$#%&*&*&
gw bt bgt...!!!!!!!!!
g penting...!!!!!!!
pdhl gw punya cucian d kmr,, pdhl kamar gw kotor
pdhl buku" gw nunggu buat dibaca..!!!!

dah jam 3,,gw blom mandi,,blom makan,,dn masi d kolej orang,,
padahal jam 5 rapat d sps..
besok ada acara PPI,,
aaaahhhh...!!!!!!
BT bgt si gw..

wasting so much time,,
dn gw sadar akan hal itu...

ntar yg ada tinggal nyesel,,
if only,,
aaahhh...!!!!!!!
***...!!!

hidup itu harus diitung semuanya..
sehari cuma 24 jam,,
semua juga jatahnya sama,,
tergantung gimana kita make 24 jam itu..!!

*** ah lo semua..!

useless

my life's been useless this 3 days..
d first day was ratatouille,,scheduled at 2,,but escaped at 4,,
back at 1am,,
second days was wake up in 12,,doing nothing till hunger n late lunch at 4,,
then dinner at 9,,
talking talking talking till 1 am..
then today,,
wake up at 12

!@#^&^$%#@#!#^%^#@#$^%^%$#%&*&*&
gw bt bgt...!!!!!!!!!
g penting...!!!!!!!
pdhl gw punya cucian d kmr,, pdhl kamar gw kotor
pdhl buku" gw nunggu buat dibaca..!!!!

dah jam 3,,gw blom mandi,,blom makan,,dn masi d kolej orang,,
padahal jam 5 rapat d sps..
besok ada acara PPI,,
aaaahhhh...!!!!!!
BT bgt si gw..

wasting so much time,,
dn gw sadar akan hal itu...

ntar yg ada tinggal nyesel,,
if only,,
aaahhh...!!!!!!!
***...!!!

hidup itu harus diitung semuanya..
sehari cuma 24 jam,,
semua juga jatahnya sama,,
tergantung gimana kita make 24 jam itu..!!

*** ah lo semua..!

useless

my life's been useless this 3 days..
d first day was ratatouille,,scheduled at 2,,but escaped at 4,,
back at 1am,,
second days was wake up in 12,,doing nothing till hunger n late lunch at 4,,
then dinner at 9,,
talking talking talking till 1 am..
then today,,
wake up at 12

!@#^&^$%#@#!#^%^#@#$^%^%$#%&*&*&
gw bt bgt...!!!!!!!!!
g penting...!!!!!!!
pdhl gw punya cucian d kmr,, pdhl kamar gw kotor
pdhl buku" gw nunggu buat dibaca..!!!!

dah jam 3,,gw blom mandi,,blom makan,,dn masi d kolej orang,,
padahal jam 5 rapat d sps..
besok ada acara PPI,,
aaaahhhh...!!!!!!
BT bgt si gw..

wasting so much time,,
dn gw sadar akan hal itu...

ntar yg ada tinggal nyesel,,
if only,,
aaahhh...!!!!!!!
***...!!!

hidup itu harus diitung semuanya..
sehari cuma 24 jam,,
semua juga jatahnya sama,,
tergantung gimana kita make 24 jam itu..!!

*** ah lo semua..!

dari bulbo seorang teman

Sekiranya anda mengetahui pada bulan
Hijrah anda dilahirkan, menurut
pengetahuan tradisional bulan itu
mempunyai pengaruh yang tersendiri
terhadap perilaku. Dicatatkan bagi
menambahkan pengetahuan:

Sebelum itu, jika anda tidak tahu tarikh
lahir dalam hijrah, silahkan click dsini

Panduan Bulan Islam

Muharram (long form: Muarram ul aram)
Safar (long form: afar ul Muzaffar)
Rabi al-awwal (Rab I)
Rabi al-thani (or Rab al Thn, or
Rab al-Akhir) (Rab II)

Jumada al-awwal (Jumd I)
Jumada al-thani (or Jumd al-akhir)
(Jumd II)
Rajab (long form: Rajab al Murajab)
Shaaban (long form: Shaabn ul
Moazam)
Ramadan (or Ramzn, long form:
Raman ul Mubarak)
Shawwal (long form: Shawwal ul
Mukarram)
Dhu al-Qidah
Dhu al-Hijjah

Muharram
Bersifat pendiam, sihat fikirannya.
Mungkin akan menjadi bodoh jika tidak
mendapat didikan yang sempurna, walaupun
begitu, jika dididik dengan baik, dia
boleh menjadi cerdik kerana bakat
fikiran yang pintar cerdas ada padanya.
Dia mempunyai keinginan yang baik dan
selalu berada dalam selamat.

Safar
Tabiatnya buruk. Dia tidak suka mengakui
kesalahannya. lbubapanya perlu
mendidiknya bagi menghilangkan tabiat
buruk itu, jika tidak, kehidupannya akan
menjadi susah di kemudian hari. Walaupun
begitu, sekiranya dia melakukan sesuatu
untuk kepentingan dirinya, selalunya
ianya akan mendatangkan hasil.

Rabiul Awal
Perwatakannya baik. Mungkin dia akan
mendapat pangkat besar, menjadi orang
berpengaruh atau kaya tanpa diduga.
Dalam pekerjaan ramai yang suka. Sifat
negatif dirinya termasuklah kurang
sabar, hatinya keras dan mudah marah.

Rabiul Akhir
Perwatakannya jahat. Hatinya tidak
tetap. Fikiran dan kemahuannya lemah,
buruk nafsunya, kasar wataknya, mudah
mengangkat tangannya. Kehidupannya
menjadi sukar kerana tabiat buruknya
itu. Ibubapa menempuh kesukaran dalam
mendidiknya.

Jamadil Awal
Dia mempunyai tingkat keyakinan yang
tinggi. Dia berani dan nekad, kadangkala
melakukan sesuatu yang bodoh atau
bahaya. Walaupun begitu, keberanian dan
tekadnya itu akan menunjukkan hasil
usahanya, yang menemui kegagalan juga.

Jamadil Akhir
Wataknya berani, dia hormatkan orang
lain. Berbagai kepandaian ada padanya.
Apabila dia tahu bahawa dia salah atau
keliru maka dia mudah mengakuinya, tapi
bila dia tahu dia benar, pendiriannnya
keras dan tidak mahu mengalah. Semasa
kecilnya, ibubapanya perlu mendidiknya
dengan baik agar terserlah
sifat-sifatnya yang baik itu, kerana
jika betul didikannya, masa dewasa ia
akan menyenangkan kedua orang tuanya.

Rejab
Semasa kecilnya dia degil dan nakal. lbu
bapanya patut mendidiknya dengan baik
agar dia dapat menerapkan nilai-nilai
yang baik. Ketika sudah dewasa, dia suka
bersikap merendah diri dan bersikap
tidak tahu menahu. Ini agak berlainan
dari sikapnya semasa kecil. Walau
bagaimanapun hidupnya selamat dan sentosa.

Syaaban
Perwatakannya baik. Hidupnya selamat dan
rezekinya tidak putus-putus. Sewaktu
kecilnya dia mudah mengalah semasa
bermain dengan kawan-kawan. Kelakuannya
baik, berbudi bahasa hingga semua orang
sayang padanya. Masa dewasanya dia akan
berjaya dalam segala kerjayanya dan
mudah mendapat rezeki.

Ramadhan
Dia baik, pendiam, suka merendah diri.
Dia tidak angkuh kepada teman yang
dikenalinya. Dia tidak suka menonjolkan
diriya. Kehidupannya selalu selamat.

Syawal
Perwatakannya keras. Hatinya keras. Dia
tidak suka dikalahkan oleh orang lain.
Hal ini membahayakan hidupnya, oleh itu
ibu bapanya perlulah mendidiknya dengan
betul bagi menghilangkan tabiat buruknya
itu. Jika tidak kehidupannya menjadi
susah kerana perangai keras hatinya, dan
dia selalu bergaduh terutamanya dalam
hal mencari rezeki.

Zulkaedah
Perwatakannya pendiam. Banyak perkara
baik pada dirinya berubah menjadi buruk.
Dia banyak berfikir, kerana sifat ini,
satu hari nanti dia akan mendapat hasil
yang baik dalam kehidupannya. Tetapi
oleh kerana banyak berfikir,
perbuatannya kadang kala menjadi keliru.
Dia seharusnya bertindak tanpa terlalu
banyak berfikir untuk mendapat hasil
yang yang memuaskan.

Zulhijjah
Jika dia jahat dia terlalu jahat, jika
baik terlalu baik pula. Dia sering
mendapat padah dari perbuatannya
sendiri. Dia sukar mengawal perasaannya,
kadangkala terlalu berlebih-lebihan atau
sebalikknya. 0leh kerana dia tidak dapat
memberikan garis pemisah, dia sukar
mempertimbangkan baik buruk
perbuatannya. Dia seringkali menyesal
kerana kurang hati-hati dan kurang
pertimbangan.

**mine is Sunday 22 Muharram 1409
what di u think..?? match..??
i think its quite right..

dives dives dives

ive just had my first diving trip at pulau aur,,and its really fun,,
although i didnt enjoy the post diving,,cuz i always get vomit afterward..
but after all,,it was fantastic..

my first dives was at teluk teluran,,twenty something feet for thirty something minutes
my first thought was,, "wow,,its a real life discovery channel"

my second dives was worse,,
fourty something feet,,twenty something minutes
the current was so strong..and it was sloppy
and i had a very though equalizing...
but it was worth it,,
the fishes swam in front of my mask,,
and i nearly could touch them

my third dives was better,,
at teluk jawa,,calmer than the second..
it was thirty something feet,,and thirty something minutes..

my fourth dives was again in teluk jawa..
my last dives,,
and its getting better..

i saw many beautiful fishes..
i even saw a turtle,, but not exactly during my dives..
but on the way back to the resort from the dive site..
wow,,
it was amazing,,
a turtle,,safe n sound..!!!!

although i only had 4 dives and 7 vomits
i really enjoy the trip,,
and looking forward for my next diving trip..!!!

now i know,,
someday,, i wanna be an underwater photographer...

so excited

actually,
im not feeling really well,,
so tired lately, dont get enough sleep,,
and when im awake, most of my time is to stare at my vaio's LCD..
damn all this internet things..!!
now,,
im waiting for my diver instructor to do my 4&5 module
this evening we'll do the pool session, 
and tomorrow evening,,
im going to pulau aur [somewhere in johore's east coast]
doing what..??
diving...!!!
and get my diving licence afterwards...
mmm,,, im soooo excited...

this morning,
i woke up at 8 and felt so cold while my forehead felt so warm,,
maybe i will get fever after i do my diving trip,, but i really hope i wont get any of those during my diving trip...
huuuu,,im soooow excited...!!

silly mistakes [again]

ive just realized,,
during my fluid mechanics test,,
what i believed as specific weight was density.

SILLY..!!

ive checked, and my method is correct,
it just it.!
damn...!!

so, whats the difference between specific weight and density.
as u know, density is mass over volume,
while specific weight is density times gravity.
its not that i cant remember 9810 N/m^3 and 1000 kg/m^3
they gave it on BG unit..
62.4 lb/ft^3 i thought it was specific weight.
i shouldve multiplied it with 32.2 ft/s^2 [gravity]
whats the point of having BG units anyway,,
they've made SI units
why bother things with BG unit...???

damn,,,
again,,
i made some silly mistakes..

~X(

TOLONG.....    
saia merasa saia semakin gila dengan segala pelajaran, test, tutorial, lecturer yang ngambek, tugas, kuliah jam 8 pagi, rebutan bus ama anak taun 1, dan segala ttg perkuliahan.

kalo nangis ataw treak bisa membantu,, i'll definitely do it.. anything,, just to ease my mind and my body,,

i feel so tired and have no time for my self....

TOLONG...!!!

men are from mars, women are from venus

Girl Facts:

When a girl bumps into your arm
while walking, she wants
you to hold her hand.

When she wants a hug,
she will just stand there.

When u break a girl's heart,
she still feels it when
u run into each other 3 years later...

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running
through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, "
after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so
wonderful.

When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, "
no one in this world can miss you more than that.

When a girl is mean to you after a breakup, 
she wants you back, 
but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows that you're gone forever.

Guy Facts:

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you.

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong.

When a guy says, "I'm fine, " after a few minutes, 
he means it.

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest, 
he has the world.

When a guy calls you everyday,
he is in love.
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, 
he means it.

When a guy says he can't live without you, 
he's with you till you're done.

When a guy says, "I miss you, "
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him.

**retrieved from _____.multiply.com

***which do u think most true..? 

Tutorial 1 Fluid Mechanics

i feel so stupid,
tring to do the tutorial i mentioned above,
but can do nothing..

monday'll be the test day
and i cant do the tutorial...!!!

what i afraid the most is that my GPA will free fall.........

oh my god.....

STRUGGLE nin....!!!!!

somebody help me....!!!!!!!

i can only do the manometer part,, 
and none about the hydrostatic force,, nor archimedes,, not bouyancy,,
nothing...!!!

DAMN...!!!

i cannot run nor hide..
what shall i do,,
with this headache, soar throat, tired body..
damn...!!!

shall i cry,,
well if it could finish the problem i will cry as loud as i could...
but,,it wont,, it just foolish thing to do...

somebody help me...

wake up paper

last wednesday, i got my OC paper,,
which i did at saturday, right before i had our camp..

and it was..
really bad.
one third.
damn.

and when i did my energy balance paper,
i also couldnt hope much from it.

then i started to think

how could this happen to me..
its not a good beginning.

i know what i had to do,
i shouldnt connect to often.

so,,anybody
please help me..

i wanna unplug my wire

but in the other hand i also think...
damn,, how i need someone to support me,
just to say goodluck before i had my paper.
to say make me proud of you each day before i study.
damn.

i have to encourage my self,
wake up,
all by my self..

i dont wanna have such a one third mark no more.
OC is my wake up paper.!!

Indonesia Enhancement Camp 2007

two tumbs up,,
for us..
indonesia undergraduate students,,
that has successfully arrange this camp..

really lots of fun there,,
and i feel really close,, like a real big family with all of us..

i love it..!

looking forward for our next program..

i'll upload those photographs..
as soon as im ready, and not hectic..

click here to see our montage

indonesia education : before, present, then...

im doing a lil research on "reasons why foreign student choose UTM for their futher study",,
and i got to find a secondary source [books,journal,newspaper article,etc.] that related to that topic..
and i found this book,
an old one actually,,
The Insider's Guide to Foreign Study by Benedict A. Leerburger.
it was published in Canada at 1987
[i wasnt even born yet]
i scanned that book, hoping i could find about Malaysia,,
but,
guess what i found

South East Asia :
Indonesia
Singapore
Taiwan

no, there is no malaysia..
there is INDONESIA..
counted as one of the world's choice for further study.
back there at 1987
and what happens now.. twenty years later...?
i am studying at Malaysia, one who once came to study in my country.
they turn the situation in two decades,,
who can tell what'll happen in the next 2 decades..?

oh,,
please..
dont be proud if u re studying abroad and just wasting ur parent's or sponsor's money.
we came here,, for a better study,,
for a brighter future..
and what i want is also brighten my country's name.
we came here, not easy ma [bee,,,gaya chinese di kelas gw bgt]
dont juz waste ur time, money and oppurtunity..


me, the indonesian girl,, and so proud of it.