Quoting Marilyn Monroe

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” 

And

“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” 

Knowledge is knowing that tomato is a fruit, wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad.

i'm now trying not to put a tomato in the fruit salad. i think it would be the right thing to do. with all the wicked situation, i think it's for the best. 

it's not only about knowing what the right thing to do. but also knowing what not to do, and things that would be better left undone. 

it's for the best. as u said.

[Jangan] Menunggu Bahagia

Woman can have it all, we just can't have it all at once.
— Hanindita (@Sihanin) September 23, 2012

sering berpikir, jika saya punya semua yang saya mau hidup saya akan sempurna. saya akan bahagia.

bukan pasti apa yang saya mau sama adanya dengan yang saya perlu.
buat apa serba berpunya, tapi merasa hampa. karna yang saya punya, semua saya mau, tapi bukan saya perlu.

kesempurnaan. overrated. bukankah kesempurnaan hanya milik Tuhan?

dan kebahagiaan. bukankah ia, saya yang menciptakan? semacam makhluk asing dalam kepala. angan-angan.

at some point, saya harus mencukupkan diri dalam segala kekurangan. memuaskan diri dengan segala keterbatasan. bersyukur dan bersyukur atas rahmat Tuhan.
bukan kah dengan begitu akan muncul kebahagiaan?

jangan menunggu untuk bahagia. 
karena bahagia saya yang cipta, saya yang rasa, saya yang punya.

Annyeonghaseyo!

jujur, gw gak pernah kepikiran untuk pergi ke Korea Selatan. im not in to the whole k-pop boom, dan gak kepengen aja.

until yesterday...

Tuhan emang punya cara yang gak pernah kita bayangkan

pagi-pagi temen kantor, mbak Dwi, ngemail ada promo garuda. gw sama dia berencana ke Kamboja Januari 2013. terus gw tanya sama dia mau kemana lagi nih taun depan. gak dibales-bales sampe sore abis aerobik di kantor, jam 530an kayanya. gw baca reply dia, maret mau ke HK, mei mau ke korea. katanya mumpung promo garuda, kapan lagi dapet tiket pp garuda 3.5 juta ke korea.

tring. kaya dapet wangsit.

gw lsg cek harga tiket di web garuda untuk penerbangan di tanggal yg sama sama Mbak Dwi. karna tanggal yg sama dengan mbak Dwi udah sold out, jadi gw berangkat H+1 dan pulangnya bareng. tanya Mas Adit, kakak gw yg ke korea tahun ini. is it worth the price? gw dapet harga USD366. he said it's worth it. murah itu. it was 5.44pm when i asked him. dan jam 6.11pm gw udah issue tiket buat ke Seoul. 

some where i have never imagine i would visit. hahahaha.

indeed, God works in a mysterious surprising way.

gw belom pernah make a decision to travel in 10 minutes. but it felt so damn good. boleh dibilang ini keputusan impulsif. what ever. i need this trip!

Gak akan rugi punya duit dipake jalan-jalan dan beli buku.

i am going to south korea!

Self Talk*

In life there are things that we can control and the things we cannot control.
— Hanindita (@Sihanin) September 18, 2012

True?

hal yang bisa kita kendalikan itu misalnya apa yg kita lakukan, apa yg kita omongin.
hal yang gak bisa kita kendalikan itu misalnya gimana orang bereaksi terhadap apa yang kita omongin/lakukan.

sebaliknya pun gitu.

kita gak bisa kendalikan orang lain mau ngomong/lakukan apa ke kita, yg kita  kendalikan adalah reaksi kita ke dia.

jangan juga nyoba mengubah orang lain. atau pengen orang lain berubah.
coba aja, emang kita semudah itu buat berubah?
instead of expecting others to change, ubah aja reaksi kita terhadap tingkah laku orang tsb.

kalo kita udah berusaha sebaik mungkin, memberi selalu yg terbaik. tapi dinilai tidak cukup. yaudah, kan kita gak bisa kendalikan gimana penilaian orang ke kita. let it be. u have given ur best. 

usahakan selalu yang terbaik dalam hal-hal yang bisa kita kendalikan.

hal-hal yang gak bisa kita kendalikan tadi itu, sebenernya dikendalikan oleh Tuhan. and God works in mysterious surprising ways.

sering kita merasa kecewa karena hal-hal yang tidak bisa kita kendalikan tadi, berjalan gak seperti yg kita rencanakan.

ingat, Tuhan lebih tahu apa yg terbaik buat kita.

... But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows, while you know not. 2:216

while you know not....
while I know not. 



*this is me, talking to my self.

a wound will leave a scar.

it reminds us what we've been trough. 

it may heal and disappear.

but it may stay.

like a tattoo, only it has more story.

hati-hati bermain hati.

luka hati, siapa yang tahu?

tiada luka yang menyertai.

tetapi memori akan selalu tersimpan rapi.

menghantui.

 

sore ini jakarta mendung. 
tapi hujan enggan menyambung.

siapa bilang mendung harus jadi hujan?
pun angan yang tak selalu jadi kenyataan...

 

how many twisted version of a fairy tale needed 
before you decide to create a new one?