finally my final xm final day

horray...
did i just hear cheers..?

hehe,,
i've finally finished my final xm this morning,
i've finished them all..
i've tried to do them my best, i let Lord to do the rest.
i really hope it will turn out good, better than last semester..amin..

and im goin home soon..
im so excited..
n asrie just sent me a comment on my FS, 
akmil'll have ib at 17th, i hope i can meet him,,
bandung? guess its the best spot..
bandung..always bandung..
i just really love bandung..
a city with thousands to remember, 
just cant wait to be there soon,
n i really want to freeze some frames there..

i'll go home
we'll all go home,,
thinks things through [like bg dirga said]
find d best for all of us

post-test-heavy-headache

my head feel headache, since yesterday, then better this morning, but coming back after i did my mathematical engineering test..

i watched wedding singer for my pre-test and step mom for post-test..
then till this late, still blogging, like nomore test to do..
not much people on the line, shows on my YM..where r them when im online..?

i know maybe i should sleep, but..i just wanna stay connect for a while..
i dont know, how my result will come up, but i hope it'll be better than last semester..
i need cpa of threepointsomething, and so far i've been trying my best,, just wait n see for d result..

what will happen tomorrow..?

hey, i just read desree's lyrics and i think u should read it, its good u know..

" The sun is up should be feeling great,
Your feeling rough got too much on your plate,
A busy day got a lot to do,
a heavy head you think you've caught the flu.
Something deep inside begins to stir,
spirit, conscience your not really sure.
It's gonna be o.k
It's gonna be o.k

Another day your late for work,
The shower's cold you ain't got no clean shirt.
A cup of tea just might do the trick,
the milk's gone off by now your feeling sick.
Something deep inside begins to stir,
spirit, conscience your not really sure.
It's gonna be o.k

We laughed, we cried, we shared along the way.
We did some things we knew we shouldn't do.
But after all, what's this life living for,
Your wasting time if your just keeping score. In every thing we try to do what's right.
In trying way too hard we get it wrong.
So after all what's this life living for,
Work it out or head straight for the door.
It's gonna be o.k
It's gonna be o.k

You close your eyes, try to sleep.
Scold yourself for hours that you keep.
Drifting off will I dream tonight?
In my dreams perhaps I'll get it right.
Something deep inside begins to purrr,
spirit conscience your not really sure.

It's gonna be o.k.
It's gonna be o.k, either way.
It's gonna be o.k."

everything will be just fine nin... relax...
just rest your eyes tonight, let the night take care of all your fatigue and pain, when u wake up tomorrow [not sure in morning] insya Allah, everything will be OK..

my name is....

H	Hot
A	Astounding
N	Neat
I	Influential
N	Neglected
D	Dangerous
I	Ideal
T	Tempting
A	Astounding
R	Radical
A	Astounding
T	Tasty
N	Nutty
A	Appealing
A	Awesome
S	Strong
T	Terrific
I	Important

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what do u think...??

oh my lord...

im having my first paper in d next 9 to ten hours, and what am i doin now..?
damn..
lord help me to do the test tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after..
please help me lord..
ive been tryin to study as good as possible
and now, its all up to u my lord..
please help me..

its a lil too late to said that i havent study,,
i have study but, lord, please make everything that ive learned and what i'll learn enough to answer my final exam, amin.

guys,,all d reader.. 
please..pray for me..
i need ur prayer...

ice cream..? i just feel like i need it

ive just bought and ate one and half litre of ice cream, not me my self,,its me with the girls..
i just feel like i need it,,cuz its been a long time since i ate my last ice ream,,hahaha..no.. its not that..i feel like i need those ice cream..hahaha..
it was white choccolate with marshmallow flavor [yummy....]
hahaha

this morning we just attend PPI for maulid nabi celebration, and i had a photograph with that little girl named rara,,she is so cute.!!!
hahaha..
then i wondered,, will my daughter [my future daughter] will be look like her..?no, she will be much cuter..hahaha...but rara is good,, i mean rara is cute.. she is so chubby and has a curly hair,, oh so cute lah... i like her, and i thought "what kind of husband shall i look for to get a daughter like her" hahaha...but im sure, my [future] daughter (what ever my[future] husband look like) will look much more cuter than she is..and she'll be a wonderful child, beautiful and so nice also smart..amin..
well, if i put that photo on FS and i said that shes my daughter, im sure u all will believe, hahaha.. its nt that i look much ike her, but, its not surprising anymore for being a teenage mom nowadays,, right..?
but that not happening to me ofcourse,,
i still have so many dreams and achievements and targets to be reach..
but see that picture there..rara is so cute right...?

mmm,, then i'll have my first paper in monday..
wish me luck yaw..

i locked my self in my unlocked room

Try not to care to anything happens outside my room. Whatever they think about me. Whatever.. whatever ..!

I just want to reach my target this semester. I’m coming back to what I’m coming here for. So, for now, sorry. But I’m not giving a damn to anything except my coming final exam. If u understand, thanks very much, if u don’t understand, well I don’t give a damn..!

Selfish..? I am..

Self centered..? that’s me..

So just accept that.. cause once more,, I don’t give a damn..!

its raining out side

From where I sit now,

I can hear the sound of rain falling steadily,

I can smell the wetted grass and the wetted tan,

I can see the grey sky,

I can feel the fresh wind breeze

Can you..?

Wondering, what r u guys doin rite now, at the time I wrote this post and at the time u read my post.

R u just killing ur time, opening some blogs randomly, and then accidentally got here.

Or u read this blog with purpose, what ever it is.

I don’t know..

By the time I wrote this post, I was tryin to study material engineering for my final, but I cant seem to put my head in focus. In the middle of the rain, perfect time to have a daydreaming.

Have u heard jojo’s too little too late?

I’ve read the lyric, have u?

“So let me go now
'Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know...
It's just too little too late”

Too little too late..?

His chance has come and gone..?

Is it already too late..?

Has his chance come and gone..?

Or

There is no such word like too late in my dictionary..?

Never too late..

Never no for him..

Earlier,

My friend told me that he officially being forgotten by his ex.

My other friend was being cheated by his girlfriend while another friend of mine cheated her boyfriend.

My other friend was trying to find another love of his life.

My other friend was breaking up.

What about me..?

What do I feel now.. Beneath these masks.. Underneath my skin.. Deep down inside..

Like a little bird in the middle of the rain.

Couldn’t find way home.

Couldn’t define where it belongs.

Confused.

Afraid.

So the little bird chose to stop for a while, rest its wings, on a branch, waiting..

Waiting for... Nothing.

Just relax until its nerves begin to feel comfortable.

Until it ready to fly back, and decide where to go.

To where its heart lead. To somewhere it belongs. And hopefully to somewhere it wants.

Cause the little bird feel numb rite now. Numb.

N.U.M.B

“don’t say u love me/unless forever/don’t tell me u need me/if u’re not gonna stay/don’t give me this feeling/I’ll only believing/make it real/or take it all away”

my last mass balance lecture

the meaning of last here is last,, last not latest..
i hope it really be my last lecture on mass balance,,
and when i had my last thermodynamic lecture,, i hope i wont meet my lecturer again,,
its not that i dont like her..
she's about to get her doctoral next year, 
it means that i meet her again, im extending my study, 
and im not planing to, so..i hope i'll just see her on my graduation day..

so,, my mass balance lecturer gave me not only mass balance lecture but also some life tips..
like what am i doin in university.. what i should do but probably i didnt do..
like this one example..
lets think back why we go to university..? why i went to UTM..??
he said that to get one piece of paper that has UTM stamp
well thats true..
and to achieve it we must struggle,,
not juz lepak-lepak kat bilik je..
and its not the number of ur attendance that matter,,
its what u got from each lecture that matter..
i really feel that im missing lots of things when i miss a lecture,,
i dont know wether its juz me or its how it suppose to be..
but i do feel it..
and its not juz a piece of paper,,the number on the paper also matter...
things like that lah..

then,,its about quality versus quantity..
which one is u concern d most?
those two things have to b balance rite..??
i mean nowdays evrything measured in numbers and alphabet,,
wether u get an A or an E,, 4.00 or 1.99
but whats an A whats 4.00 if u cant solve problems they'll give u in ur field work..??
well, if u can solve the problem but your quantity is 1.99 or an E who woud belive in u in d first place..??
so this is how the relate to each other..
the quantity will show ur overall ability, your first impresion, while ur quality will show next..

then the other thing is that i had a chat with lunggi yesterday,,
he's in LA now, studying,,but havent enter university yet..
he's doing solething like college and a part time job..
well it really disapoint me when he shows that now he has already got his american thoughts..
it shows..
like when he told me about his plan taking her girl there,,and i asked him wether he wants to "nikah, kawin or living together",,and when i asked him wether he is still doin his prayer regularly,,he said,,no,,he doenst do his prayer regularly..
well,,then some thoughs come out from my head..
its not that ur in west country now so u got to think westly,,
i mean when u live there u will get so many influence that'll influence u,,and u gotta be smart to filtrate them,, not like juz adapt 'em all..
i really sorry for him actually,,
i mean he got those oppurtunities,,thats good,,but what is he searching afterall..??
whats in ur hand now,,could b gone in a blink,,so u better also get the eternal one..
its not like im so good to lecture u about those religy thing, but i juz wanna remind u,,well him, like what i did to my brother, sina..

well i re-read this post and its like its quite long enough,,so..im done..
this all lah..

wish me luck on my final,,please..
im chasing that three point something this semester..